Is this real?

During my execution of technique I seldom open up even half of what I am capable of. The reason for this isn’t because I believe my training partners will burst into flames, nor is it because my students are already aware of the awesomeness that is me. The reason is because the amount of anger and darkness that is released during the execution of a truly violent action is something that can’t be done on a regular basis with the expectation of it not seeping into other aspects of your life. So I prefer to execute with intent and leave the higher levels of intensity of that intent to be done in the real world and for non-believers. Of course there are those occasions when real execution will seep into your training. This weeks training was one such day. Under the watchful eye of two instructors I executed a particularly violent series of movements on a training partner. From the moment of contact my intent and intensity was such that I could feel my partners emotional intent turn from uki to victim. The only words out of his mouth were “is this real?”. He truly believed in his heart that I was going to hurt him, of course I didn’t, at least not to any great degree. The two instructors watched with interest, but didn’t say anything. I didn’t apologize, I didn’t help him up, we just moved forward with our lesson. And the answer was, “yes”, it always is.